Moving On From Broken Expectations

Happy New Month, it’s kind of a somber one for me..

Broken Expectations are one of the worst pains you can ever experience. This is mainly because it takes a lot of courage to have expectations in the first place. When you let yourself expect, you’re jumping off a plane, so, to then figure out that your parachute isn’t going to work after you’ve already jumped, is brutal to your soul.

This is what happens to us in almost every aspect of our lives. In our relationships with friends, lovers, and family, in our everyday interactions with people and life but, most importantly in our everyday interactions with God.

I’m not going to specify which I’m talking about because all pain is pain, all broken expectations are still broken so , if it speaks to you, let it speak to you.

When you put your trust in something or someone, it is hard to find your footing when they let you down. (If someone lets you down, they let you down. Stop beating yourself up and feeling guilty for being let down).

Let's use skydiving as an example. Lets say that you finally get the courage to jump and you end up breaking your leg. The reason you broke your leg wasn't because you didn't follow directions and not raise your leg high enough, it was because the equipment was faulty.

It's hard to get back up and trust or hope again when you already jumped once and you ended up with a broken leg. This can be extremely painful, physically and emotionally. especially when you feel so strongly that you made the right, informed decision when you jumped. You picked the right company with 10,000+ reviews, the instructor seemed knowledgable, so you trusted them but you still got hurt. Now if you got hurt because you didn't lift your legs up higher like they told you too, I'm sure you would feel a bit better. Like yeah, that was my bad.

It’s easier for me to get back up when I got hurt as a result of a wrong decision but, when I made the right call… when I did what I was rightly supposed to do, it’s very hard to reconcile that right decision with my broken outcome.

And that’s where I find myself today. On the other side of all the right decisions but with the outcome of a broken heart.

Truthfully, as I write this, I am not 100% sure how to reconcile broken expectations, but, this is what I would say,

Romans 8:28“And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.”

Paul writes in Philippians 1, from a prison cell I might add, he says, what the Devil intended for harm, God will use for good. This is my steadfast hope; that my current season of navigating through broken expectations is not my permanent season.

THIS TOO SHALL PASS.

Many times we stay stuck in a moment, we allow these moments become definitive in our lives, not positively but negatively. If that’s you, you’re not alone. Today however, lets make a positive definitive decision to move on and do whatever it takes to do so.

I said I wouldn’t say the source of my broken expectations, but I will now. My mom lived her life FULLY for God she did EVERYTHING right, well…tried her hardest at least. Yet she isn’t here to celebrate her birthday on Earth this year when I expected her to be here for many more years. Why did God take her from me?

My expectations were broken by the love of my life; God himself. Does it hurt? Yes. Do I understand? No, but what is my foundation if I give up on him now? What was my love for him if I renounce my faith now?

Should I take good from God and not also take ‘bad’. Bad here is in inverted commas because I know deep down in the roots of my foundation that great is my reward to come STILL because, God, yes this same God who broke my expectations, works EVERYTHING out for my good.

So, I say today, DON’T GIVE UP NOW, don’t stop jumping now. Just Jump as long as you know its the right decision trust God no matter the outcome because he knows best.