Gone But Not Forgotten

I've been stuck, not knowing what to say.....you're gone but I will never forget you. Found out you were gone and I cried, I got mad (at myself and at you) then I laughed. Thinking back on our few memories I honestly couldn't help but smile and laugh. Thank you for being a joy to my life.

You got me to journal, you encouraged me to write, to express my thoughts in words. I would've still been an emotional mess without that push. I honestly question if this blog would have ever came to be without your initial guidance. Thank you for teaching me ways to express my thoughts and emotions.

I never got to tell you how I felt about your poetry book. I read it thanksgiving break as soon as you sent it and I hated it. The title alone ' The Black Rose Society; Diary of a Doomed Poet' ...a doomed poet?? Seriously? You were so honest, so transparent, so raw and I couldn't handle it, so I hated it. The day I found out about your passing I read it again, not the poems but the entries and asked myself "Why would he write this? Why would he say that?" I don't know why I felt you had to shield your feelings from us...your truth. That is how you felt and that is what you thought and I'm glad you put it out there. I hope it gets published. "We all know what it's like to hold that fistful of tears. We all know what is to feel insignificant. We all know what it's like to be a member of The Black Rose Society." - Steven

Thank you for being honest.

Your time on this earth? Amazing. The people you crossed paths with? Impacted.

I love you. Rest in Peace Steven Anderson aka Ahjani Shakur

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