Grief is Complicated

I saw something that I wanted to share. It explains everything I’m feeling.

“It’s good to see you’re doing better.”

That's not what it meant though.

I was still grieving, but to the world, I was moving on.

And that hurt.

I couldn't explain that this was still grief.

Initial loss made sense. It was overwhelming, all-consuming, and I cried.

A lot.

But I don't cry like I used to. Not the same way at least.

I wake up every day and I remember you're not here...

but I don't always cry…. and that doesn't make sense to even me.

Grief is hard to explain.

And then you'll have these feelings of grief you don't even understand yourself.

I stopped crying, but I was still grieving.

I can’t explain what I’m feeling but I know I’m not “better”.

I’m the same. And I need the same love and support that was there in the beginning. Grief is complicated.

I love you guys.