You’re Home

Dear mommy,

This week was an emotional rollercoaster.

Sunday, Mother’s Day. I remember our exact conversation last Mother’s Day, I remember your gift coming in the day after you were called home and not knowing what to do with it…Mother’s Day was hard.

I didn’t expect to be as emotional as I was.

Thursday, my graduation. The days leading up to my graduation, I was dreading it. All I could think about was that you weren’t going to see me walk. The degree that we fought daddy into accepting, a degree that was for you. I couldn’t even have a large crowd there to celebrate with me and “distract” me from my thoughts. I didn’t want to go anymore, I even contemplated hiding in the restroom but I remembered all it took to get there and why I was even there in the first place and I walked. The joy I felt was unexplainable.

Today..Saturday, the anniversary of the day that God called you home. I didn’t cry once today, I couldn’t even because when I thought about you sadness is not what I felt. I felt calm, I felt at peace. You were an angel in the shape of my mom and I know that when God took you back he said “Hallelujah, you’re home.”

You’re home mommy. I love you and I miss you so much!

- Blessing, your bestie.